Change- A new Era!!
I intended this blog to be a diary recounting my experiences in Europe during my stay there. Those were interesting times with lots of firsts and discoveries. Life was simple without any expectations and worries about future.There was just an urge to enjoy life in all its beauty and colors.
Times have changed. I have graduated from my alma mater IIT Delhi- the place where I was born, and am now working in Bangalore (the new age sweat capital; what is ironic is that there is no actual sweat so it takes a long time to realize this fact!!) for an international oil and gas company(little surprise!!). I have seen life in all its vagaries and uncertainties and have gone from a personal high to a personal low. Old friendships have been dismantled, new are brewing forth. But there's a nostalgia and a sense of despair for the lost and carefree days. There's a realization that perhaps the best times are behind me. Time is one thing which never stops, the more you try to hold it the more it seems to slip away.
I know all about change.My life has been all about change. From a sleepy city to a peppy upmarket school in Delhi, from a 'day scholarly' college to the supposedly best college in India, from being an average IITian to being an ambassador for India in France, and lately from college life to work life, I have seen it all. Every change breaks some old notions about life and brings forth some new understanding. I had always welcomed change looking it with a sense of hope and a spirit of challenge. But perhaps I have had one change too many.
Human beings are fickle by nature. Every day in our static life, we urge for change and when that change arrives, we become disoriented and nostalgic. Life is all about managing changes. Coz as is said, "Change is the only thing that is constant in life." A person who can manage change successfully can pretty well claim to have found the key to happiness and satisfaction. There was a time when I looked down upon people who spend all their lives in one town, one locality, one subject and one job. I had extended this concept to include friends, relationships too.But some events in past few months have made me realize that not every change is desirable. There are some people- friends and relationships which you want to preserve for life. That doesnt mean that you have stagnated- no, in turn it shows that you have finally graduated from being a rudderless nomad to one who has finally found his calling in life. Our elders call this coming of age. I know there are things you only understand after falling and this is one thing I have learnt the hard way.
I feel restless and wild. I want a cause- a job, a subject, a person to which/whom I can pour my heart and soul out. I want something on which to base my life. I want some meaning to all my actions and all my learnings. Finally, I want to get high on 'life' again.
Times have changed. I have graduated from my alma mater IIT Delhi- the place where I was born, and am now working in Bangalore (the new age sweat capital; what is ironic is that there is no actual sweat so it takes a long time to realize this fact!!) for an international oil and gas company(little surprise!!). I have seen life in all its vagaries and uncertainties and have gone from a personal high to a personal low. Old friendships have been dismantled, new are brewing forth. But there's a nostalgia and a sense of despair for the lost and carefree days. There's a realization that perhaps the best times are behind me. Time is one thing which never stops, the more you try to hold it the more it seems to slip away.
I know all about change.My life has been all about change. From a sleepy city to a peppy upmarket school in Delhi, from a 'day scholarly' college to the supposedly best college in India, from being an average IITian to being an ambassador for India in France, and lately from college life to work life, I have seen it all. Every change breaks some old notions about life and brings forth some new understanding. I had always welcomed change looking it with a sense of hope and a spirit of challenge. But perhaps I have had one change too many.
Human beings are fickle by nature. Every day in our static life, we urge for change and when that change arrives, we become disoriented and nostalgic. Life is all about managing changes. Coz as is said, "Change is the only thing that is constant in life." A person who can manage change successfully can pretty well claim to have found the key to happiness and satisfaction. There was a time when I looked down upon people who spend all their lives in one town, one locality, one subject and one job. I had extended this concept to include friends, relationships too.But some events in past few months have made me realize that not every change is desirable. There are some people- friends and relationships which you want to preserve for life. That doesnt mean that you have stagnated- no, in turn it shows that you have finally graduated from being a rudderless nomad to one who has finally found his calling in life. Our elders call this coming of age. I know there are things you only understand after falling and this is one thing I have learnt the hard way.
I feel restless and wild. I want a cause- a job, a subject, a person to which/whom I can pour my heart and soul out. I want something on which to base my life. I want some meaning to all my actions and all my learnings. Finally, I want to get high on 'life' again.
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